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A fine day to everyone!

I have not updated my journal for such a long time... in fact, it has been more than a year and a half! And that was merely because of the simple reason that my subscription expired, I did not want to buy a new one but at the same time I did not want to lose my journal CSS. So I simply left the old journal here in place. I wonder how many people are actually interested in what has happened in the meantime. In one word, a LOT.

I last updated my journal when I was some 90 days before my trip to New Zealand. Yes, I finally got there last September and it was absolutely amazing! I have to say it was one of the best times in my life, if not the best time ever. Just breathing the super-clean air was well worth travelling those 20000 kilometres. I spent 17 days there and even in that short period of time it felt like home... and actually when I was going back to Prague, I was feeling very homesick on the plane and for one more week after I had returned. Everything was pretty, clean and friendly there, great food and I could buy tons of cheap sushi! There were stunning plants and interesting animals, I even saw the Hector's dolphins (as you may have seen in my gallery).

Then, the next big thing (probably the biggest) which happened is that I became a princess. Well, maybe you do not uderstand it perfectly from this simple statement, but the fact is that I used to be a man and now I am a princess. Actually not completely yet, rather I am "in the process" of becoming one, but for my consideration I am already one. You may have seen that change in the photos on my page, well what can I say more... if you are interested you can always ask. On Monday I finally got some long-awaited pills from my doctor (Androcur!) and a paper saying that I have the right and it is desirable for me to change my name to a gender-neutral one. There are some problems connected with this however, since I was born in a different place from my current "permanent residence" state and my citizenship is different too. Oh well, I hate all that paperwork and persuading people that you actually need something. At least the pills are without a problem, I just pick them up at the pharmacy and then have one every day.

The next thing what happened to me was a (seemingly great) relationship which ended with a lot of pain for me and absolutely no concern on the part of the other, erm... "participant". It was maybe my mistake that I actually believed completely in someone from this world. People are terrible, evil and their desire to always want something "more" and "better" is the end of all good there ever was. People do stupid things without considering the consequences all the time, they act on impulse and fleeting emotions which is very bad for everyone. As a princess I shall be more cautious and demand much more of people who want to be close to me... if I should consider them as something more than "mere friends". I do not want to go through something like this again, I am mostly fine now but even then it still bothers me from time to time, especially in my dreams.

Another event of this year was my poor health condition. I was ill the whole February, I had some nasty infection which spread to my heart but thankfully my body managed to get rid of it and everything is fine. Then there was another problem, an infectious bowel disease which caused an inflammation, which caused me great pain and digestion problems for several months and also caused me to get irritable bowel syndrome. After going through lots of tests and several disbelieving doctors, I finally got pills which are helping it and I can live normally again. Hopefully my condition is improving and I will be able to stop taking those pills in a few months' time.

Because of all this, I have not drawn nor painted anything for a really long time. Now my mother should be moving to her own apartment, meaning that I will finally get some more privacy and I will be able to do some things which I need privacy and peace for, for example painting and playing the piano. I am finally buying my digital piano in two weeks so I am really looking forward to it!

I think that is all for today, now you know what I have been doing and what has been happening to me... in case of further questions just ask.